1/22/07

Our class today opened my eyes on how I view my emotions. Often in a relationship, I want to be in control. I have never had a controling nature, but I didn’t know why I had the urge to be in control until I heard the saying, out of fear we go to control and it leads to repel people. I am affraid of gettting my heart broken, so I often don’t let anyone else in. Also, I have a list of what I want my husband to be like. I have physical and personality traits that I want him to live up to; however, in class we learned if we resist it, then it will persist. If you are so opposed to it, you will draw it. The quailty I have to have in a guy is a great smile, and I didn’t know why I liked this guy so much because his teeth are not straight at all. It’s just funny how this applies to my own life. Lastly, I learned that "you don’t need to control other people’s happiness." I stress myself out into pleasing other people that I often end up making myself unhappy. However, I need to create a wonderful day for myself, and not worry about pleasing everyone else. I can’t be concerned about what others think, and start enjoying and living life for myself.